Humanity used and hurt me for it’s gain,
And when I cried out in pain,
It consumed my voice.
Fear and suspicion pervaded all the stars.
They claimed “theirs”, of what was ours,
And eclipsed the sun.
Now I pine in this interstellar darkness,
Writing on of my distress,
And though it may be useless,…
Send it into space.
K. Aldaya, 11/15/21
Picture: By Adrian Gaede on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/ddwLvLf-7ao
I’ve experienced the infinite gloom of the soul,
Devoid of hope.
A bottomless hole.
I’ve experienced the ageless cruelties of man,
These would-be gods,…
Seeking praise since time began.
I’ve experienced the horrors of where no one dares to go.
Where no one understands,
And no one will ever know.
I’ve experienced the suffering of more than one human’s plight.
I’ve split apart so many times,
That nothing ever feels right.
Yet, I’ve experienced love and joy, and inexpressible beauty,
So I wonder if in the end I’ll feel it was worth it…
To have been part of humanity.
K. Aldaya, 9/15/21
Picture: By Joshua Earle on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/wyaMgb1ToUI
As the world decays beneath us,
I wonder sorrowfully,
How many will be here tomorrow?
And will one of them be me?
The ground has opened wide,
Threatening to swallow us all,
As devil’s in humans’ clothes,
Neighborly push, to help us fall.
I have not prayed for many years,
And it may just be absurd,
But I find myself wanting to,
Even if it won’t be heard.
I fear that the demons are real,
And all the good angels have gone.
Now all we have is one another,
And little ground to stand upon.
For I am but a mortal child,
Yet, I wonder anyway,
How many will be here tomorrow?
…I better write this today.
K. Aldaya, 9/13/21
Picture 1: By Fakurian Design on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/1r0TPtmhEZA
Picture 2: By National Cancer Institute on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/701-FJcjLAQ
Picture 3: From ABC News: Michael Franchi; https://www.abc.net.au/news/2021-05-09/mining-camp-designers-plan-covid-19-quarantine-hub-in-wa/100119364
Picture 4: From CNN (VCG via Getty Images); https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/asia/covid-china-quarantine-camp-hebei-b1790210.html
Picture 5: Posted by Jim Davidson on Twitter; https://twitter.com/planetaryjim/status/1298645415831777280
I crossed mountains,
To warn of evil,
And you did not even care;
Then made friends with the devil,
And cast me out.
I crossed oceans,
To deliver you,…
To protect you, and to care;
Then you left and never knew,
I was drowning.
I crossed deserts,
To be by your side,
And quench your soul with hope;
And you rolled on as the tide,…
And left me there.
I crossed highways,
To run away to….
Nowhere in particular.
Desperately,…ran from you,…
And you let me.
K. Aldaya, 9/5/21
Picture: By Simon Berger on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/ET6NrIKz7Ak
I place my hands in front of you,
Though you do not see,
And I ask myself,
“Why do I do this to me?”.
I try and cry for sight,
In a world of the blind,
And expect to be seen,…
Out of sight,…out of mind.
I place my hands in front of you,
And you do not even know.
I wished for years to be like you,…
Now I’m just going to go.
K. Aldaya, 8/29/21
Picture: From The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo; https://weheartit.com/entry/328118982
My Soul is a Lock Without a Key 