Why can’t you acknowledge and accept me?
Not for who you wish I was,
But who I’ve come to be?
Not by choice, and not from spite,…
By providence and necessity.
For I can not escape from myself,
Where I live entirely,…
And where none come to find me.
M.E……..Missing Eternally.
K. Aldaya, 12/8/21
Picture: By Keith Wong; https://unsplash.com/photos/3BqzXdQFJvc
I crossed mountains,
To warn of evil,
And you did not even care;
Then made friends with the devil,
And cast me out.
I crossed oceans,
To deliver you,…
To protect you, and to care;
Then you left and never knew,
I was drowning.
I crossed deserts,
To be by your side,
And quench your soul with hope;
And you rolled on as the tide,…
And left me there.
I crossed highways,
To run away to….
Nowhere in particular.
Desperately,…ran from you,…
And you let me.
K. Aldaya, 9/5/21
Picture: By Simon Berger on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/ET6NrIKz7Ak
I place my hands in front of you,
Though you do not see,
And I ask myself,
“Why do I do this to me?”.
I try and cry for sight,
In a world of the blind,
And expect to be seen,…
Out of sight,…out of mind.
I place my hands in front of you,
And you do not even know.
I wished for years to be like you,…
Now I’m just going to go.
K. Aldaya, 8/29/21
Picture: From The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo; https://weheartit.com/entry/328118982
It shouldn’t have needed to be said,
If you were going to hear.
Speaking is not hearing,
And silence is not absence,…
I am here.
A thousand upon a thousand words.
Lifetimes of echoing noise,
Drifted away, …unheard.
And I’ve always been waiting,..
Silently, in the noise,…
To be heard.
K. Aldaya, 8/14/21
Picture: By A Befendo on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/tKEY5x1Y-y4
I was not a human,
And you were not a man.
When you took me to hell with you,
I became the cursed, and you, the demon.
Your eyes of flame and ash,
Tore through me as a lash;
And scorched my soul into remnants,
To be coldly discarded as trash.
Your evils became mine,
And my world became thine,
As I begged to God for justice,
You then emerged from the abyss,
Into the sunshine…
On angels’ wings.
K. Aldaya, 7/31/21
Picture: By Matthew Ball on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/dSoR8sLMSIE
My Soul is a Lock Without a Key 