561. Estranged

I crossed mountains,

To warn of evil,

And you did not even care;

Then made friends with the devil,

And cast me out.

I crossed oceans,

To deliver you,…

To protect you, and to care;

Then you left and never knew,

I was drowning.

I crossed deserts,

To be by your side,

And quench your soul with hope;

And you rolled on as the tide,…

And left me there.

I crossed highways,

To run away to….

Nowhere in particular.

Desperately,…ran from you,…

And you let me.

K. Aldaya, 9/5/21

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560. Untouchable

I place my hands in front of you,

Though you do not see,

And I ask myself,

“Why do I do this to me?”.

I try and cry for sight,

In a world of the blind,

And expect to be seen,…

Out of sight,…out of mind.

I place my hands in front of you,

And you do not even know.

I wished for years to be like you,…

Now I’m just going to go.

K. Aldaya, 8/29/21

Picture: From The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo; https://weheartit.com/entry/328118982

557. Noise

It shouldn’t have needed to be said,

If you were going to hear.

Speaking is not hearing,

And silence is not absence,…

I am here.

A thousand upon a thousand words.

Lifetimes of echoing noise,

Drifted away, …unheard.

And I’ve always been waiting,..

Silently, in the noise,…

To be heard.

K. Aldaya, 8/14/21

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528. Gone

I could scream, and yell, and tell you off,

But why even bother?

When you’re determined to misunderstand me.

I’m always the loser. The criminal. The other.

There’s no use in talking to those who can not hear,

And there is no use in waiting in a line,

When you’re always in the rear.

Nothing gained, and more time lost.

Time’s so precious…

It’s too high a cost!

So I won’t pay with my time anymore,

Nor wait for another attack.

I’ve turned and walked away from you,

And I’m not coming back.

K. Aldaya, 12/2/20

GIF: From The Vampire Diaries; https://weheartit.com/entry/310251927

500. The Useless

No one cares if you live in darkness,

Because they get to live in the light;

And sometimes I’m bitter, and it hurts my eyes,

To be hidden in misunderstandings and lies.

And sometimes I wish I could find and steal,

A little light to know how they all must feel;

So when it shines in their eyes they will know,

I’ve escaped their ignorance and ego.

For a moment, I hope they get a glimpse of the pain,

Of groping through life with the label “insane”.

Squinting, erratic, and lost.

Tell me society: What is the cost?

Is it so hard to turn on a light?

To invite truth, and do what is right?

Instead, they all go ’bout their day,

And blame the blinded for not finding their way.

For no one cares if you live in darkness,

‘Cause they get to live in the light.

Maybe one day it will all get too bright…

For them to face themselves, and address,

The loss and suffering, so useless…

…so useless….so useless….

K. Aldaya, 12/19/19

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