584. Mute

There was once, long ago, a girl who did not speak.

The other villagers around, said she was a freak.

They said she used to speak quite well,

Then one day was asked, and could not tell,

The answer to a simple quandary.

She moved her mouth, though no sound seemed to break free.

One day, a village man spied her walking away,

Out into the woods,…and followed through the foggy gray,

To a secluded forest house.

She entered as he snuck like a mouse,…

To the window,…and heard voices inside.

She was speaking!…which injured his village pride.

“How manipulative! Pretending not to speak!”

“Not speaking with us!…Fraudulently quiet and meek!”

He thought about telling everyone straight away,

But decided it was best to confront her that day.

So when she returned late that night,

He approached her by blazing torchlight.

“I heard you speaking well in the forest”,

“Why don’t you give your playacting a good rest!”

She looked down tensely and then found a stick and wrote,…

In the dirt, the clearly etched words: “Don’t I get a vote?”

“‘Fore you judged, why’d you not ask me?”

“Why I can’t speak to you all,…and flee,…”

“Into the forest,…where I met a friend”,…

“In whose safety, my spare time I would soon spend?”

“Speak! What are you so afraid of?”, he asked fiercely.

“I fear the loss of soul and self”, she wrote solemnly.

“I do not understand”, he yelled, “Just use your voice!”

“Why do you feign as if there is no actual choice?

She wrote out: “Do we choose to feel?”…

“For if so, tell me how not to feel.

For, no, I do not want to feel this way,

And wish I could go back to a former day,

When I felt I was secure to feel, and to be…

Before I fell down hard, and no one ever caught me.

Screams, when unheard, hurt fatally,

And take away the voices’ ability,…

To react…to actuate…to explain,…

And deep within the throat all that’s left is pain.

I fiercely want to speak, but my voice turns to stone,

And leaves me in the silence,…bitterly all alone.”

The man stormed off abruptly in rage and disgust,

‘Til he saw the boy from the forest kicking up dust,…

Nearby,…”I saw it all”, he said.

The man spoke to the stranger ahead:

“You should leave or you will wind up dead”.

“I’ll leave”, the boy replied, “…first, I must speak”.

“If you wish to be angry then you should seek,…

The voice of ev’ry villager who stayed silent,…

While injustice was done:…turned away and were absent.

She tried to tell all the elders,…

But they did not hold her voice as hers.

No one believed,…they stood idly by,

As she was rejected for being hurt by,…

The former chief of the tribe,…many years ago.

She tried to say aloud, but no one wanted to know.

If you wish to seek answers, then you should be sure,

To inquire for them, wherever they may occur.”

The boy slinked back,…out of the light,…

Into the forest, and out of sight.

The next morning, the girls’ body was found,

In the crystal lake nearby, where she had drowned.

The unheard silence had swallowed her up for good,

And the villagers,…they never truly understood,…

That silence speaks when words can not,…

And when understanding is not sought,…

The truth,…it does not go away,…

Someone will know….

….Someone will pay.

K. Aldaya, 6/15/22

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574. Negligent Rapture

Ah, the luxury of not having to believe.

I wish I had such riches.

Some things are best not known.

Best not to scratch the thought that itches,

And pretend it isn’t there.

Ah, the luxury of not wanting to believe,

And live in ignorant bliss.

I wish I knew what it was like,

To shove truth away with a fraudulent kiss,

And not feel guilty at all.

K. Aldaya, 2/15/22

Picture: Original Source Unknown; https://weheartit.com/entry/19485891

565. Arcane

I waited lifetimes for men to do what is right,

To seek truth, no matter how hard,

And light-up the ageless night,…

In search of each shard,

Of forgotten plight.

Yet, there’s no use in waiting for hope or justice,

When men seek what’s easy, not just,…

And sleep soundly at night, feckless,

As shadows are thrust,

In each orifice.

I waited lifetimes for no more than fantasy;

For when I look into the black,

It gazes back into me,

While those who won’t see,

Endlessly attack,…

And I grin, knowingly.

K. Aldaya, 11/17/21

Picture:

  1. From Sucker Punch; https://gifs.alphacoders.com/gifs/view/181159

2. From Sucker Punch; https://www.fanpop.com/clubs/sucker-punch/images/26330438/title/babydoll-photo/4

539. It’s Hard to Believe…So Don’t

You don’t want to believe,

And you do not care,

Because you do not have to.

You live comfortably…

Unaware.

For you will not believe,

What you have not known;

So, you’ll cast away my words,

Leaving me in silence…

All alone.

I don’t want to believe,

Though I have no choice.

Living is the greatest proof,

That I can not trust you,…

With my voice.

K. Aldaya, 5/18/21

Picture: By Jackson Simmer on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/1grn4afhiEE

538. Meretricious

You’re ignorant, and you’re fine with it.

You don’t really want to know some things.

You’re ignorant, and I’m used to it.

You love that you get to look down,

On everything;

As “Hypocrite”.

You’re ignorant, and I despise it.

You don’t really want to care at all.

You’re ignorant, and you savor it.

You live heedless of rejection,

Or dismissal;

Without merit.

You’re ignorant, and revel in it.

You don’t really want me to exist.

You’re ignorant,…with no deposit,

You gain what you’ve no rights to…

Laugh and subsist,

As counterfeit.

K. Aldaya, 5/3/21

Picture: By Tiko Giorgadze on Unsplash; https://unsplash.com/photos/uc6uKmUnGsg