582. I’m Still Me

Everything I longed to be,

I could never be,

For I could never find my way,…

Back, to all of me.

Everything I longed to do,

I could never do.

Thoughts and memories…too fragile.

Dreams always fell through.

Everything I have longed for,

All of it and more,

Was not to be my destiny,

No, not anymore.

Everything I longed to be,

I could never be,

I am everything I am,…

Just,…separately;

And though I’ll never live it all,

I know I’m still me.

K. Aldaya, 5/16/22

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466. I Was Born to Endure Destruction

I was born to endure destruction.

It’s in my nature to survive.

My mind is not immortal,

And it fights to stay alive.

I was born to endure destruction.

When broken…I’d rebuild.

I’ve been demolished many times,

Though I have not been killed.

I was born to endure destruction.

All the pieces left: They are me,…

But you call me a liar,

And reply that, “It can’t be!”.

I was born to endure destruction.

Cracks run throughout my brain.

You may believe it can not be,

Yet those lines kept me sane.

I was born to endure destruction,

It’s in my nature to survive.

My mind is not immortal,

And it fights to stay alive.

K. Aldaya, 1/27/19