Even sparse of visions,
To show us what is real.
We still carry the encumbrance,
From what we sense and feel.
K. Aldaya, 7/04
Picture: Broken Face by xxoblivionxx on Deviant Art; http://xxoblivionxx.deviantart.com/art/Broken-Face-65475551
Even sparse of visions,
To show us what is real.
We still carry the encumbrance,
From what we sense and feel.
K. Aldaya, 7/04
Picture: Broken Face by xxoblivionxx on Deviant Art; http://xxoblivionxx.deviantart.com/art/Broken-Face-65475551
I must keep running,
This thing is ever so cunning.
It chases afar,
I can’t stop to rest,
Hunting me, it’s at its’ best.
It never will stop, nor let me forget,
That I deserve it’s constant threat.
At times so near, that I can hear it,
Breathing and yearning for just one hit.
To take me down to its’ stormy lair,
A pit of utterly loathsome despair.
I must keep moving,
No stopping to hide,
It can sense where I reside.
My fear, it draws it, ever closer; closer.
Always there it will not deter.
Keep on running,
No! Don’t turn around!
Keep going ’til you lose its’ sound.
The sound that echoes,
That pains and taunts,
The minds of those it eternally haunts.
The darkness around,
It hinders my flight,
But doesn’t obstruct my pursuers’ sight.
I’m lost in darkness,
Confused and afraid….Run!..,
Through a world without any sun.
In the darkness it swiftly flies,
Glaring at me with its’ flaming eyes.
I often can hear the pounding in my ears,
Its’ heart beating, throbbing me to tears.
I must keep running!
Forever move faster!
To avoid a potential horrific disaster.
I must stay strong,
Keep moving ahead,
So I don’t end up worse than dead.
K. Aldaya, 3/21/04
Picture: Artist Unknown; http://imgs.mi9.com/uploads/scary/4348/terror-eye_1024x768_76579.jpg
“Who was I”, you may ask,
What was hiding ‘yond the mask.
I want all to be able to see,
Me for me, when I no longer be.
That I am, and I once was,
Discover the soul for what it was.
I don’t want people to think I,
Always thought only of when I’ll die.
I tried my hardest to always see good,
Through life’s disappointments I stood.
I always tried to do the best,
Whilest my heart and mind were stressed.
I wanted to make others joyful,
Not drain their heart but keep it full.
I never wanted to ever cause,
Someone to break the happiness laws.
People may say I saw only bad,
But through all creation I saw much glad.
Don’t think I never, ever noticed,
All that’s found through natures’ mist.
The beauty of the clouds and stars;
Of all the planets, Earth through Mars.
The sight of which brought kind tears,
The vastness that goes out light-years.
The splendor of the fields and seas,
The seasons, even winter freeze.
I see it all, I am not blind,
The many times people are kind.
The many blessings handed me,
As being born where I am free.
I have lots to love I see,
Except myself, I just hate me.
This is what people should know,
I am my own great foe.
Everything can be so great,
But for myself it is too late.
I am often afraid and weak,
But never say I didn’t seek.
K. Aldaya, 3/20/04
Picture: Hubble/Galex/Spitzer Composite Image of M81; http://hubblesite.org/newscenter/archive/releases/2007/19/image/j/format/web/
Hello little girl I once was,
Are you doing what a little girl does?
You aren’t like all those others,
You are a girl that hides under-covers.
Other little girls don’t do that,
Sneaking and tip-toeing ’round like a cat.
When the night-moon’s up on high,
You don’t sleep but lie and cry.
Little girls aren’t this bad,
They don’t keep their parents mad.
Little girl why is it, that you so often get a hit?
Why are you so often loud?
You know talking’s not allowed.
You can now hide in here,
In the closet hide from fear.
Little girl come out! Come out!
Can’t you hear your daddy shout.
You must leave your cave now,
And greet the thrash of bad’s endow.
Little girl I hate you so,
Why can’t you disappear and go?
You shouldn’t even breathe their air,
You don’t deserve one single hair.
Why are you so disgusting?
You’re such an awfully messed-up thing.
Little girl go hide again.
Stay there ’til I tell you when.
Close your secrets in with you,
Shut them ever in there too.
Little girl your secrets, they,
Must stay forever locked away.
Little girl you need not show,
How you’re badder than they know.
You, yourself, brought this on,
So you deserve what’s foregone.
Hello little girl I know well,
Keep your soul locked. Never tell!
K. Aldaya, 3/08/04
Picture 1: Photographer Unknown; http://erebusteam.net/attachment.php?attachmentid=1240&d=1368782526
Picture 2: Photographer Unknown; http://www.soc.ucsb.edu/sexinfo/sites/default/files/child.jpg
No matter how hard I try to forget,
My mind won’t let me lose this regret.
I try as I can to now move on,
But these thoughts are never gone.
I want to have it ‘straight’ in mind.
There’s nothing but to leave it behind.
Please Lord help me keep on moving,
Give my confused head some soothing.
Don’t let me keep living my past,
Help me be a person at last.
K. Aldaya, 3/7/04
Picture: Photographer Unknown; http://farm6.staticflickr.com/5018/5533325673_cfa59295a1_z.jpg