Ghosts in the corner of your eyes,
Haunt and taunt you despite disguise.
You can’t hide what you have done,
Their tormenting has only just begun.
You can’t hide from them anywhere,
They can find you here, and find you there.
Ghostly visions of a tormented place,
Where you must ever await saving grace.
K. Aldaya, 10/10/04
Picture: Artist Unknown; http://i.ytimg.com/vi/lJarvZMi0gU/maxresdefault.jpg
I can’t touch anything now,
It’s all coming again,
These feelings I can’t escape,
From things that happened back then.
I burn from the inside out,
Losing realities grip.
Touching things made of soft,
That turn stone as a moment does slip.
How can the body keep living,
With the residue of the mind,
Haunting every motion.
A life sentence of rewind.
Please let this all be over.
I can’t take all this again.
Pitted against the recall,
Of closing off from the pain.
K. Aldaya, 10/10/04
Picture: “Dead Inside” by Pure-Poison89 on Deviant Art; http://pure-poison89.deviantart.com/art/Dead-inside-280258615
My hands they are there,
Every finger I see.
Each finger can move,
To a thought’s plea.
But is what we perceive unvarnished reality?
If reality is purely perception.
If moved a finger not.
Shall I see the hand as false,
When feeling is not sought.
When feeling is all gone,
What truth or real have I got?
K. Aldaya, 8/1/04
Did it really happen?
I knew at the time it did,
But now I only question.
From my eyes all truth is hid.
My head is so confused.
Are they right about this too?
Did I over-react then or did I make up what I knew?
Their words clutter thoughts,
Making me rethink everything.
Did it happen at all or was it as they so sing?
Was it a daydream that I confused with real?
They’re right…my fault!
I deserve what I got, and feel.
Now I must forget that anything happened at all.
I must not ever show,
Hurt from hitting that brick wall.
K. Aldaya, 5/20/04
Picture: from Missing You: Actress Kim So-Hyun as 15 year old Lee Soo-yeon; https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-1S3D-ADJXzo/ULnXNr5qCqI/AAAAAAAAABU/Mw3T3ZFlPxw/I-Miss-You-Korean-Drama.jpg
Amid darkness the large oak trees,
Reach out to me in the breeze.
The darkness hovers over my head.
The black clouds continually stomp and tread.
No stars can be seen, nor moon.
I only hope that day come soon.
Lost in black I feel them near,
And hear their screaming in my ear.
The voices that linger in great sadness,
And eternally dwell in darks’ abyss.
I can feel their full heart pain,
And the madness in their brain.
My head is pounding and pounding,
With all the pain resounding.
The dark swallows my last daylight,
And I am lost into the night.
K. Aldaya, 3/23/04
Picture: Abyss by Ishutani on Deviant Art: http://ishutani.deviantart.com; http://th02.deviantart.net/fs70/PRE/f/2013/089/8/6/abyss_by_ishutani-d5ztss6.jpg
My Soul is a Lock Without a Key 
