261. Use Me

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I will not cry because it will get me nowhere.

Yep, what a waste of time to care;

To care for myself or my feelings.

After all, no one could less care.

It’s best to pretend that everything is okay.

Keep smiling and acting that way.

No one wants to be ’round a downer,

And I don’t matter anyway.

“Just do what you’re told and make everyone happy”.

I’m sure you will nod and agree.

I’m not capable of ‘happy’, right?

It’s too late, far too late, for me.

I will not cry because it will get me nowhere.

Yep, what a waste of time to care;

Care for myself or my sorry life.

That’s right, use my life. I don’t care.

……..Wasn’t using it anyway.

K. Aldaya, 2/28/14

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4. Memories: Truths or Lies

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Oh, I remember that!

Can you not, too?

Over there I once sat!

“No you didn’t” said you.

Is the glimpse a lie?

Not real, but of dreams?

A shadow caught by an eye,

Imprinted where the mind deems?

How can we tell what is real,

When visions are softly expressed?

We have these and what we feel,

How would we know if the truth was repressed?

K. Aldaya, 4/22/03

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