591. Thoughts on a Dark and Moonless Night

I’m so overtired.

I wish I could sleep.

I stare at the ceiling,

And silently weep.

I’m nobody’s worry,

And nobody’s care.

Lifetimes of emotions,

Pull me here and there.

The moon’s even sleeping.

I wish I could too,…

Though life, it is not fair,

And it is not through.

I have many more nights,

To cry on my own;

And far many more days,

‘Fore I can go home.

K. Aldaya, 8/22/22

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377. Yin and Yang

I know you think I’m weak,

And those who “feel” are pitiful.

So I’ve often felt like a freak,

For simply being me.

Yet as I’ve grown older,

I’ve become much more aware,

That those whose hearts are colder,

Are much more pitiful.

A life lived on the path.

‘Tween pure bliss and despair,

May be a smoother path;

Though leads the soul nowhere.

Souls grow in sagacity,

Through the beauty and the pain.

Grow stronger on a rougher sea,

Or steep and winding road.

With ups and downs we learn,

What’s truly of worth.

With every dip and turn,

We learn to persevere.

Depth is seen as weakness,

And shallowness as divine.

Society praises emptiness…

As close to godliness.

Those who disagree: “Insane.”

“Their emotions are showing!”

“A symptom of a faulty brain,

Wandering on dangerous paths.”

I don’t care anymore what’s said,

I’d rather struggle and fight,

Ever braver in what lies ahead,

Then to fear being “too much”.

My soul is not a coward,

And my heart and mind fight on.

I do not fear love or discord,

They are borne in equal measure.

K. Aldaya, 12/19/16

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