Praying, Amen.
Trying and losing.
Lost in despair,
Knowing the choosing,
Hath put me there.
Wrong choice again.
No redemption.
Trying and crying.
Always in wrong.
It so confusing.
Confliction too long.
Wrong choice again.
K. Aldaya, 9/23/04
Praying, Amen.
Trying and losing.
Lost in despair,
Knowing the choosing,
Hath put me there.
Wrong choice again.
No redemption.
Trying and crying.
Always in wrong.
It so confusing.
Confliction too long.
Wrong choice again.
K. Aldaya, 9/23/04
How can you see the sun glow,
But never warmth from it to know?
How can you see the vibrant sky,
But feel no stirrings to comply?
How can you hear kind words said,
Feel no consent, discord instead?
How can you see and hear everything,
And yet no feelings, therefore, bring?
K. Aldaya, 9/21/04
Who again said “words can’t hurt you”?
That somehow words just flow right through?
I would rather be stabbed in head,
Than stabbed in back with words they’ve said.
Tearing people down with words,
Is the forte of cowards.
No scar left to show the attack,
They get away with every smack.
Never punished for their crimes,
Judicial records hold no times.
Though they injure to the soul,
Kill all that makes a person whole.
A scar, a cut, a bruise can heal,
But ever will those insults feel.
As if they were just said today,
Repeating in head the same way.
Can’t escape the memories,
They consume like a disease.
Go away! Stop yelling!
Don’t worry. There’s no telling!
No one cares that you slaughtered,
Cut my heart with every word.
You will get away with it,
Go ahead. Hit and hit!
Like you always say,
I deserve it anyway.
I wish you’d smack me this time.
You always threaten to, each time.
Hold your hand up like you will,
Instead throw the dog for a thrill.
Hear it crying and me too,
But hit me you will not do.
For you knew that I would wear,
Something that showed you were there.
You’re a coward. You knew,
My mom could punish me for you.
And no dirty work on hands,
From the toiling of your plans.
Who again said “words can’t hurt you”,
If only the hurt from words they knew.
K. Aldaya, 9/18/04
Picture: “Words Hurt” by Skittles-And-Zombies on Deviant Art; http://www.deviantart.com/art/Words-Hurt-350592892
Dear ‘God’, please remember me when I reach heaven’s ingress.
Hold me close as can be, for I have such loneliness.
Dear ‘God’, why do they all leave?
Why always left here alone?
Daily soul to grieve and grieve,
‘Til my heart is dead as stone.
Dear ‘God’, I’ll pretend you’re here.
Standing next to me smiling.
Glancing at me so dear,
This dream keeps me trying.
Dear ‘God’, would you stay always,
With this ‘lone forsaken soul?
Upon which none do gaze,
Left by the world unwhole.
Dear ‘God’, maybe you care for me?
People pass me on their way,
But don’t care to know me,
A lonely castaway.
K. Aldaya, 9/16/04
Picture: by dear_wes on Weheartit.com; http://weheartit.com/entry/65224866/via/dear_wes
Some think they know the poet well,
Who speaks with rhythm, rhymed,
And loudly with a thing to tell,
Cascades the open mind;
Of every soul upon which it fell.
Are words the voices held inside?
Found in each souls’ expanse?
Which are sent outward to guide,
All to know the soul at glance?
For won’t, within, the truth e’er hide?
K. Aldaya, 9/8/04